sorry, i love you the way you don’t love me.
i’m sorry i just happened to be one of those girls who aren’t indpendent & who bring you all that bullshit :/ i’m sorry, i’m not perfect. i’m sorry, about last night. i’m sorry about all of a burden i’ve been to you. i’m sorry i can’t be as pretty/bomb as other girls. i’m sorry i’m emotional and that i can’t turn back to the old me. i’m sorry you don’t like the old me. i’m sorry i cried my eyes off for more than two hours and still am. i’m sorry how we you don’t want to talk to me at the moment :/ i’m sorry this was the first time i’ve cried so much that my eyes are bloodshot red, my cheeks are so damp, my voice is shaky & unstabled, i’m sniffling like hell and my breathing is very harsh that they think i’m suffocating myself… i’m sorry this was the first time i’ve cried so much since i was about 9 years old, from a family death. i’m sorry for being the most whipped bitch out there. i’m sorry for crawling back to you when you no longer needed me. i’m sorry i care enough to stay. i’m sorry that some of these apologies may be wrong or not what you think. i’m sorry that people called and had to hear all my harsh crying. i’m sorry i exposed so much of myself to you, emotionally + literally. i’m sorry i had to be your first. :/ i’m sorry for all of the accusations i’ve made about you and us. i’m sorry for how many arguments we’ve went through. i’m sorry i don’t have enough strength to leave you. i’m sorry i still love you even though i lost my own self respect & dignity. i’m sorry i sacrificed too much for you than i should’ve, and you barely noticed. i’m sorry for begging you to stay with me. i’m sorry everything was so perfect yesterday and that problems just appeared recently. i’m sorry i’m starting to think that we’re both regretting what has happened even though i really know i won’t once everything gets back to normal… i’m sorry my hopes are high, that everything will go back to normal. i’m sorry you had to read this. i’m sorry for not letting this all slide like you wanted. i’m sorry… i never meant to make everything such a big deal. but it just is, for me :/
& i’m sorry i have to run upstairs now,
before my mother & uncle notice i’m crying
and that it’s not just allergies & coughing.
