they were right, i couldn’t have controlled it
i’m still at april’s house . her party yesterday was alright . locked in a room with aj ? that’s a big no no . didn’t do anything with him though . lots of people slept here . played dare . boring , much ? nothing really big happened. but …. i don’t know , everything was a blur . didn’t know what to do . regrets ? not really , just thought things happened very quickly . at one point last night … i left the room . when it was just us 4 in sonny’s room . i looked at myself in the mirror , and broke down . couldn’t stand looking at myself & seeing myself constantly change , after change , after change . i’m making this pretty dramatic . i’m just scared of consequences , if he might leave me earlier than i’d want him to . i’ve became too attached . to the point where i even get upset for him leaving the room . i woke up around 7 and just happened to wake everyone else up . aj & qristaan left … thanks for not saying goodbye . but eh, it’s alright . well , i’m on the phone with my daddy . he’s talking to me about moving to shoreline . last night , i sat on the patio with aj and brought that up . i might transfer next school year -_- oh my . but my dad says it’s my choice on what school i really want to go to . he isn’t going to force me into yeah . and he’s asking if i forgave him about the past . i feel like crying my ass off even more … i’m sorry , i’m so darn emotional right now . only got 3 hours of sleep . but i must admit , it was nice falling asleep in aj’s arms & waking up to find myself staring at him . goodmorning <3 / 8:09
