since he wants to assume stuff like, i don’t need him. or i don’t want him. or what not. i’ll somewhat try to move on. i mean, i know i’ll always have feelings for him. but i’ll try to just stay away from him and avoid talking to him or whatever. goodbye, tumblr. last post. but no, i won’t delete all the “i love you” texts in my inbox on my old phone that are from you. that’s one thing i’ll always keep.. </3
i’m not sure if i should blog about how i’m feeling. to sum it up - i’m materially satisfied. two phones, and a new camera. i need to catch up on school work. i’ve been sluffin ever since i got back from florida. emily’s still looking for an apartment for her and i to live in. all this stuff with guys? blog about them later. with aj? it’s most likely officially over. i love him. and that’s part of the problem.. i love him too fucking much. i went back to him so many times. i still could if i really wanted to. but here’s the bad part… i have so much resentment towards him now. there are so many negative thoughts in my head right now. like “what if” and regrets. but then again, in the back of my head…. i know i still love him. i’ll blog more tomorrow when i actually get on a computer. i’m using my behold. ‘nighttt.
and it’s suddenly just got to me. i thought i was out of tears. for the past times, i’ve cried were what this last break up was for. figures, i was wrong. cos here i am, crying my eyes out once again. i knoe numerous people are suspecting why i haven’t written a blog posts about aj yet? a very long one.. well, i can’t. right now. i need time. there’s so much to be said, but it can’t. without.. i don’t know anymore. i’m sorry. goodnight, for now. but i’ll still be up. btw, i still love him.
